Breaking into submission
Updated: Jul 18, 2018
To many times in my life I have found myself becoming to proud.
When I go through those different seasons, when I’m care free or seem to have run of good luck. I quickly put God back on the shelf and I can almost give myself the gratitude as if it was my own accomplishments for the happiness and peace I have.
I know for me personally, in those good times, my prayer life, my gratefulness, slowly fades away. It usually takes next trial down turn is what would then spark a passion to seek God, and begin to rely on his strength in my weaknesses.
I have always questioned God, why horrible things happen to good people. Why does my family have to be on our “A” game every day just to function? Why do I have this burden? Why isn’t my son speaking sentences and typically like every other kid? Will my constant anxiety for JJ’s Future just go way! I could easily become bitter, I could blame
Still breaking into submission
I’m currently humbled beyond imagination. It’s hard to focus on worldly
things, trivial things, theirs is little room for unforgivness, ungratefulness, Self-seeking, ungodly things when you are literally asking God for A miracle over and over again. DOES HE HEAR ME?
Through this my eyes are opened to a world of compassion and grace to others, maybe this where I’m supposed to be right now, not exempting me or making me loose hope for my miracle in JJ but to break me into who I’am supposed to become.
Is this a good place to be? I’m not sure everyone would agree, but with that said, I'm in a place where he is the only one who could make good of this and I have not choice but to constantly rely on him. I don’t want to be disqualified, I don’t want to live without purpose and hope! I’ve made a choice to trust this process and his plan for me right now and it’s much bigger than me! It’s larger than I can bare in my own strength.